Having gone without practice at making art for so long, I’m beginning to doubt myself. At this point, reading books on color mixing are a bit overwhelming for me. I have painted before, but this was when I was younger and I was using mostly prismatic colors with limited mixing. I also hadn’t been exposed so much to super-effective artwork like I have been, recently. I wasn’t aware at the time that my taking a class in color dynamics (at least five years ago) was as high-level as it registered to my last prof…
I did skim a book on color mixing today which looks interesting, but much above my level. This is a book by Stephen Quiller, called Painter’s Guide to Color. A quick check reveals that he’s done far more than this book, but I will probably not get into that, as I haven’t read any of his other works.
This book, however, is more in the line of what I was looking for in the last one. Speaking of which, I’m about 60% through Barron’s Practical Handbook of Color for Artists, but I decided not to weigh myself down with that one so much, today.
I…am thinking that I may be overwhelming myself. There’s so much that I could be doing, but because there’s so much, I’m hesitant to start on any of it. (This is also a perennial trip-up when I fall behind in schoolwork.) There are a couple of art projects in-progress (the mandala project and a monochrome trial in markers that I wanted to do as regards illustration), one recently started jewelry project, working in the career-counseling workbook, reading about jobs in writing, reading about jobs in art, reading about job-hunting, work on the graphic-novel script, and the ever-present Japanese language study.
I had actually thought of giving the suminagashi another try, because I finally did get my Sumifactant, but it was oppressively hot today, and I didn’t have the energy. I say this even though I did perk up when people were in the house, which leads me to think that a portion of this is psychological. I’m sure that part of this is linked to sedation, though. I could reduce my most sedating medication, but it’s a crap shoot as to whether I’d become more active and thus, more fulfilled and happier; or whether I’ve been so depressed already that I’d have a serious relapse.
I’m thinking, maybe, that it would help to have some kind of system for prioritizing what I want or need to do. The first two things are easy:
- change bedsheets
- do laundry
…those two things I should definitely get done before Friday. I say “the first two things,” but really there are several that come before this.
- take medication
- brush teeth
- wash face
- get dressed
…in that order. I note these down because when I don’t have anything pressing to do, I often neglect self-care…when I should really be doing these things for myself, not so much for other people. After these six and the first two are taken care of:
- clean bathroom counter/sinks
- dust/vacuum computer room, vanity, and bedroom
This should give me concrete activities I can do to wake up and stay busy, while preparing to do creative work. I recall that the last time I was stalled like this, doing chores like cleaning and cooking actually helped.
Now, the difficult part…trying to prioritize which of the “fun tasks” to work on, first.
- grate/soak daikon/carrot/cucumber in rice vinegar + sugar (they’ll spoil)
- work on mandala project (defining folds; preparing 12″x12″ paper to copy smaller model onto; redraw mandala onto 12″x12″ paper; if this is satisfactory, gesso Hardbord panel; trace linework onto gessoed panel). or
- work on the drawing I started but didn’t finish, which is on my desk right now with all the Copics and fineliners. Once the underdrawing is satisfactory, use the Marker paper and trace drawing through with Microns. Attempt coloring with the Copics on the Marker paper. or
- get out the old newspapers, cover the craft table, and play around with suminagashi printing in multiple colors.
If I ask myself which of these I feel more ready to do though, I’d say the marker sketch, then suminagashi, then mandala (I still haven’t gotten the color placement down for that…which I just realized I can experiment with on Photoshop, using multiple Layers. Prior to doing any of the work on  above, I should see what kind of coloring will work out OK).
After one of the above is done…
- Work in the career-counseling workbook (You Majored in What?)…and by this time, I’ll probably have to start another cycle.
I’ll put the rest of this in another post.