I’m kind of tired of browsing others’ artwork while my own voice goes quieted (self-censored?). Not that it isn’t a good thing to have exposure, but looking is not equivalent to doing. It’s the same thing as reading without writing.
Last time I met with my usual counselor, they were encouraging me to take time out for my own self-care. I’ve had an easier time looking forward to the next three years, realizing that if I take time out to care for myself, it won’t be three years straight of all-work-no-play. (During high school, which is likely where I initially refined my study skills, it was this way. I had to play-first, work-later, or else work would eat up all my time. I was supplied with more homework than I could ever complete, which did jack for learning good work habits. Or, rather, work habits that wouldn’t erode my will to engage.)
Today has been nearly nothing but taking it easy…which isn’t a good thing, but I couldn’t bring myself to think too hard, after the last two days. I did manage to get my homework done, which was relatively easy, and fun (my Database work), though there has been no progress on the readings (I can’t concentrate around other people, and didn’t want to be alone again to get quiet time).
I also managed to get the daikon pickles started. 🙂 After that, I wasn’t totally hot on cleaning my room, or the bathroom. I know it needs to be done, but it’s waited this long. It can hold off a bit longer.
It also helps that I’ve accidentally read too much of my tutorials, and listened to an optional reading that I thought was required. I have a good way to go for my Database class, where it comes to optional readings; not so far, to finish the required ones. But I have another week, to do it.
I can get to work on the next lecture…and answering the question posed at the end of it. In my last class, I need to finish a reading, then answer a post on it. I think this will be it for the rest of this week, though I can’t be sure, as the days the lessons change over are not aligned with each other.
I just kind of can’t believe that I was able to complete everything. I thought that I might not be able to get full credit on last night’s essay — but that could have been because I couldn’t imagine that the assignment was as simple as it was. I was willing to settle for half-credit.
There is also the “homework” of reading for my Vocational program (which I have time to do, now), and talking to one or more Museum Librarians. I think I have enough information to hypothesize that I won’t need an advanced degree in Art to be competent…but it would be nice to talk to someone in the field. It would just clarify things. My fear is that they will ask me questions about Art that I can’t answer.
Although it will help in getting a clearer idea of the field. My meeting with my old co-worker did clarify that Digital Services is likely not a great bet for me, because it does still deal with customer service; in a Public Library, this would be Public Service. An Art Librarian position would still be customer service, but my “customers” would be people in the Art field, I’m thinking. These people seem qualitatively different than “anyone off the street.”
And then there is my “homework” from Counseling, which is to work out my time management. I’ve been OK so far, but I’ve only been through the first four weeks of my courses. It is relatively great that I only have one course that I have to get a good grade in…
I do need to work on my note-taking, though. And in addition to my housekeeping and cooking, I still need to learn to drive.
Thankfully, though, I think that (and exercise) are all I have on my plate…