It looks like I’m going to have to start taking care of myself, hardcore. School has started, and I’m trying to get ahead in the work, though my final project is almost entirely self-directed. I know that I’m going to be spending a good amount of time on the computer, so setting up some exercise isn’t a bad thing.
I also did see my doctor. I’m dealing with intermittent muscle twitches which are likely caused by one of my medications. Luckily, none of them are really in the same place, and my muscle fluidity was normal, today. I’m thinking the medical term for what’s going on is, “dystonia.”
Next time I see her, which I’m thinking should be in about three months — about when my semester ends — we’re planning on lowering one of my medications (which is likely causing the dystonia). I turned down the offer this time, because I don’t need to be tinkering with psychotropic medications in the last semester of my Master’s program — when I need to think, and be mentally stable. I’m already anxious. Not to mention, I may gain a different job in the interim, and delaying a medication change for 3 months is not a long time.
Anyhow, I’m supposed to be exercising 30 minutes a day, every day; or 1 hour for three days a week. My doctor recommended swimming, as carrying the extra weight (also a medication side effect) causes me to feel like I’m working out with a 30-lb. barbell over my shoulders. 45 lbs., if I think of how much I weighed as a 20-year-old, when I could and did press 45 lbs., for instance, in squats. If I think of how it felt then and how it feels now, there’s familiarity there. Realistically, if I drop 30 lbs., I’ll be at ideal weight for my height and age.
Also realistically, if I drop 30 lbs., it will be dropping more than 30 lbs. in fat, because my makeup will change to be more muscular (which is heavier, relatively).
Swimming sounds like a really great idea, though. It will be, actually, fun. It will also keep pressure off of my feet and knees, until I can get my weight down enough that I’m not stressing my joints too much when I walk or run.
The thing about swimming is that I may have to cut my hair. Right now it’s really long; chlorine just tends to fry it, bleach it, and make it break off (worse than it already does). However, if it’s very short, it tends to look like fur, and it doesn’t stay on my head long enough for chlorine damage to build up and fray my strands.
It will also greatly ease my hygiene to not have to wash all this hair — I could go running and not have to worry about struggling to get all the pollen out! I could actually wash my hair on a daily basis, or shower without worrying about how to keep it dry! (It won’t fit under a shower cap unless I twist it down. Even then, the cap doesn’t quite fit…and we’ve been through searching for shower caps. I’d need one that would be big enough to accommodate locs like Rastafarians have, and I haven’t seen those anywhere.)
Actually, that sounds good just generally. I had been trying to get it out to the length where I could pile it on top of my head, but it’s so long that trying to even pull it through a hair tie — or take off a lanyard from around my neck — or pull the comb completely through my hair — is difficult.
Visualizing my goal, which is being leaner and buff (swimming will help my upper body strength, and I can supplement this with weight training for the smaller muscles in my arms; and floor exercises [abs, lunges, squats], with cardio from the exercise bike and elliptical machine) with short hair, though — that sounds actually pretty frikken’ hot.
I suppose I don’t even have to stop at 135 lbs., either; I could actually try to get back down to 120, just in the back of my mind. Overshooting the goal, it might be easier to really make a good effort at this and actually hit 135, in the process. (I am actually not certain I will be physically able to slim down to 120! My muscles might come to weigh too much, and I’m in my mid-thirties, not my early twenties.)
Right now I’m trying not to get back to a bodybuilder mindset, but…being packed with muscle is ideal. And I know that I’m going to get mistaken for a boy again, with short hair. I’d also probably become a target for sexual harassment, again. However…that’s not a reason to be bound to long hair (and the maintenance of long hair).
I’m also supposed to contact a Coach to help me be more active and lose weight…but I haven’t done it yet. Last night, I went to bed around 2 AM; I woke up before my alarm went off, at 7:30 AM. Work was relatively fine. After my appointment and lunch, though, I fell asleep on the couch (I only got 5 hours of sleep last night), and didn’t really wake up until about 8 PM.
What’s silly is that I don’t even know what time I fell asleep today! I think it couldn’t have been more than four hours that I was out.
Let’s see…other than that, last night I got the assigned reading (for next week) done for Collection Development. I need to do some more work in the next two weeks, but at least the fundamentals are taken care of. There should also be additional work which I am not yet able to access.
I have also read that it’s best for me to get the ePortfolio done as quickly as possible, which sounds good. Both classes require — basically — study, meaning I’ll be sitting in one place for a while, whether I want to or not. That’s why I need to balance it out with exercise, which then impacts my appearance.
Hah. I wonder if it is important that anyone else sees this…