Trying not to spaz about assignments

OOOokay, people, I drank 1.5 pots of houjicha earlier tonight, and so I am not certain when I will sleep. 😛 By “pot,” I mean that I brewed the first set of tea leaves twice, and the second set once, when it became apparent that I had leached all the goodness out of the first batch. (I’m kind of amazed at the fact that the tea will still steep, even without boiling water…I just sprinkled the new tea into a pot of hot water, stirred it, and it worked.)

Right now I’m feeling okay and a little drowsy (I have been known to fall asleep right after drinking Jasmine green tea…and houjicha will probably have less caffeine in a standard dose, as about half of it is stems), and just took medication, so…if everything goes as normal, I should be conking out around midnight. Meaning, I should brush my teeth in an hour or so (11:15 PM), before I get too wiped out to even do that.

I did just get out of the shower — not sure how long my hair will take to dry, but I usually go to bed with it damp, in these circumstances. One wash with a conditioning shampoo, mostly at the roots, and a comb-through with a detangling comb and no conditioner, this time. I think it will be alright — it doesn’t feel dehydrated (yet).

I only got up around 1:30 PM today; I just checked my records. This is why I was after the tea; I was having a hard time (again) staying out of bed. It doesn’t help that when I’m sitting at my desk, which is a quiet (silent) and isolated place to work, my bed is right behind me. As for what I got done today…I finished the reading in my textbook which I mentioned last time, although it took me a number of hours to get through it. It’s amazing, because the reading was only about 15 pages long…I think this is the book that I had been complaining about, before. It’s just very dense and kind of difficult.

In any case, I can now view the lectures for Metadata, and complete the last Discussion Topic…which I think I may need to do before viewing the lectures. I’ve made a skeletal PowerPoint layout for my presentation on Sunday for Research Methodologies. I should probably reserve a time to do that, so I’m not forced to do it early. I can’t do it right now, though, unfortunately. I don’t know why, except they assumed we knew how to edit HTML.

Last night, I started in on my Quiz for Cataloging…that one is going to be more of a pain to get through (lots of essay questions, which are easier on me than technical questions — but still), but it’s the last thing I’ll have to do for that class. If I get 0 points on everything I’m not sure about, I’ll get a C in the course (apparently, 80% is a C in grad school). And like I said, come Monday, all I’ll have to do is the Annotated Bibliography, and I’ll have a full week to do that (though I want to get it done by Friday).

I am just hoping to do as best I can on the Cataloging Quiz, but I don’t think I can hope for better than a B (or an A-, if I stretch my imagination). The Discussion Topic is last priority, though it’s easy. The presentation won’t break me if I don’t do well; but I need to do it. The major nervousness about it is that it has to do with altering infrastructure as a means of actually being inclusive (as versus pushing “diversity” initiatives), which I wouldn’t think the people in the organization I’m abstractly referencing would welcome.

I think I am running in a cycle of overwork + burnout; like I do a lot of work one day and then don’t want to see it again for three days. I know I don’t have much farther to go, and that these due dates are hard due dates (or so I’m assuming). It’s just that I’m really tired of this semester and am wearing out, about now, and want to get on to the break like NOW. Or yesterday, preferably. I’ll try and keep going through Monday, and maybe that’s all I should focus on, right now.

That sounds good. And I’ll look at work tomorrow as a designated and sanctioned time to get my mind off of this. Another time would happen as I’m editing my family member’s funeral pamphlet. Couldn’t forget about that…

And yes, I am trying to single-space my sentences. How observant of you to notice! 😉 (I don’t know if it shows up at all, really; I’m just trying to break outdated habits which only made sense on typewriters…)


Restarted playing guitar!

Sooo…I have not been having the most fun or productive past two days.  I think I’m getting library burn-out (working for a library half-time and going to Library School full-time means that I have to make time for myself to do things NOT library-related).

It’s very apparent that I have the need to work on my studies in the back of my mind for most of my waking time:  not helped by not having turned in those two 2-point discussion topics.  From my present vantage point, it seems that because I’ve expected myself to work for the majority of my waking hours (except when eating), I’ve opted instead to retreat to bed, instead of doing something for myself which constitutes “living”…like, you know, the reason for obtaining gainful employment.

This…isn’t really a healthy pattern.  I’ve been asleep or in bed the majority of today and yesterday, when I could have been up and active (or doing homework).  It has, however, been cold, dark and rainy for both of these days, so I suppose that didn’t help.

Tomorrow, as well:  more work.  My schedule is drastically different from what it was last semester, when I was working three days in a row and then had four off in a row (when I was attending classes).  Right now, my largest break in between work is two days, and I have schoolwork to do, majorly (not to mention chores) on the days when I am not working.

But I suppose I am in nine units, which by itself is at least 27 hours of time that needs to be set aside for studies.  Add that to the 18 I’m working, and…45 hours a week?  (At least there is no commute back and forth to school, in there.  Nor do I have to worry about food prep.)

Anyhow, while wandering around kind of like a zombie today and wondering what I could do with my free time (what’s that? you mean when I have a choice of what to do? …choice? what does that mean?) I recalled that in my last post I had said that if money weren’t a factor, I would be playing classical guitar.  So I wandered over to where my guitar was sitting (for about the past 6 months, at least), dusted it off, tried to tune it, and started playing around with it.  Just as something purely for myself, with no thought of employment strategy influencing my activities.

As guitars are wont to do with soft fingers, my fingertips on the left hand are now sore (I’m using a steel-string, which doesn’t help; but it’s still a relatively forgiving guitar).  If I keep this up, though, my fingertips should be better and callused by the middle of this week.  Once the calluses have built up and gone away several times, they tend to come back more quickly next time they’re needed.  It’s the same reason why I’ll be fine after beginning a new macramé project, once I’m two days into it:  the pinky skin that gets sore because of my knotting toughens up really fast, now.  It also recovers quickly after I stop, which is nice.

The inspiration for restarting this was GITS:SAC OST 3, Track #9, “Mikansei Love Story”.  (That is:  Ghost in the Shell:  Stand Alone Complex, Original Soundtrack 3, Track #9, “Incomplete Love Story”.)  It’s actually one of my favorite songs among the GITS: SAC OST tracks.

The thing about this track is that it cannot be picked out without using one’s whole hand, or alternately, multiple guitar players (which there are anyway, but to me it really sounds like the main melody is one or two people, using a classical style of playing).  Classical guitar uses one finger per string, excepting the thumb, which plays the two bass strings.  The way I was originally taught was not a classical style; we were taught to strum and use a pick, which feels to me, at this point in my experience, like a very limited way of playing (we were basically all playing rhythm guitar).

But I suppose that we were actually never even taught to recognize the chords as written in musical notation or by ear, either, so the class (or two) I took was accordingly, very basic.  Ideally as well, if I were using a classical style of playing, I would be using a Classical guitar, which has a wider finger-board and nylon strings instead of steel.  But at the time I got this guitar, I preferred the sound of steel strings.  My hands and body are also not as large as they could be, so it’s a bit easier for me to use a steel-string.

I have yet to see whether the size of this guitar (it’s full-size; whereas I learned on a 3/4 size guitar) is going to hurt my back again like it used to.  Optimally, that is, I’m not supposed to be looking at my fingers, but I am; this causes me to arch over the top of the guitar, and that can hurt one’s back over time.

Well, maybe I will try this as a way to unwind, when I’m too out-of-it to think, and don’t want to draw or read or write.  There’s something about music that gets me to wake up a bit, at least…