I suppose I can start off this post with an apology for staying away too long. There has been a recent death in the family, which is why I was unable to…I believe, do anything at all on the computer, yesterday (now that I think of it).
Actually, no — I did finalize my class schedule for Summer (if all goes well on their end, I am good to go), although I am hoping that this is going to be a class that I really want to take. I still have yet to do anything about the required books, which I should get on as soon as I can, but until yesterday, I hadn’t been committed. Right now I’m on a break — M said that going in to work would be helpful in getting my mind off of things. I’m not sure if that’s correct (for me), but I only have a little more ways to go, anyway. Right now, though, I’m skipping lunch to write this.
I am wanting to post some of my photos from the other day, under a Creative Commons license. Basically, my hesitance to post anything at all has to do with not wanting to be ripped off or have to go to court to prove that I took the photos, therefore they are my intellectual property. Creative Commons kind of works around that issue by acknowledging that anyone (including me!) can use them. I’m not really a litigious type, but the concept of intellectual ownership of images (“I looked at it, it’s mine!” [?]) is kind of…well, a bit scary. I don’t have the photos with me at the moment, but I can look them over once I’m back at my normal workstation.
It was actually really peace-inducing to go out, the other day. The thing with photos, especially photos of flora, is that the light is never going to be the same again, and the plants are never going to be the same again. It applies strongly to images of blossoms — they’re so temporary. I have been giving thought to photographing the people in my life as well, though my life has been so full of staged photographs of loved ones that maybe it turned me off. Most of my photos are of natural things (my aunt was telling me that one of the counters used in Japanese depends on whether something has blood or not, heh — I take pictures, mostly, of things “without blood”).
In any case, I’m doing probably better than would be expected. It’s kind of difficult to know what to feel in these situations; I’ve been advised to just let myself feel what I’m feeling. Of course, there is the fact that it’s hard to know exactly what happens when someone dies. I’m just hoping that the person who is gone is in a better situation now than he was, before.
There is also the fact that I’m in my mid-thirties and not entirely independent, yet; which makes the prospect of my own family no longer being able to help me, be a scary thing. I do have people around me who would help me out, though, even if one or both of my parents died. I’ve been told that the conversations have already taken place, so not to worry. It is weird, though, having memories from when my parents were half their current age!
I suppose I have lived a long time with them. The time I spent in student housing at college was the only time I’ve lived alone. It was…an experience, I guess? 😉 I was at a relatively strange school, so…
Right now, I suppose, all I can do is hold down my current job or get a new one, and try my best to graduate actually with the Master’s. The good thing about taking a technology-oriented track is that there are some things I’ll be able to carry away with me, even if I somehow end up failing.
But, it’s hard to learn without taking risks. And my Vocational program plus the grant I got last year are defraying the monetary risk, somewhat. I’m still thinking that maybe I should be actually applying for scholarships, and engaging more with the school.
For instance, I have worked out a system under which I’ll be able to take everything I will need to, for the Digital Services track (though I am not sure this applies to my County’s Virtual Library positions — I might want to make some inroads to speak with the new person in charge of that). However, I’m not sure it’s optimal — I have four semesters remaining during which my classes will all be valid — two Spring, and two Fall.
I know what to take in the Summer following this one, as well. I’ve got the course rotations somewhat in hand, so I know what is given in only Fall, or only Spring. I also have searched out what I can of course prerequisites, so that I should be taking one of the only courses I need which will open up new courses to me, this Fall. The major issue is whether it’s optimally arranged. As best I can envision it, I would have to email a copy of my spreadsheet to a Counselor.
I just…am shy, have been shy, that’s part of the reason I’m in an iSchool (besides the fact that doing otherwise requires relocation). I mean, I didn’t even want to get the social media accounts that I had to, for the program. This is the major reason why I’m not hot on being a Public Librarian — I’m ordinarily withdrawn, not gregarious, and some of my more outgoing coworkers even get strained by working Reference.
The Virtual Library sounds more like my style (I do worry about being attacked, at times — one of my coworkers in the past knew someone whom this had happened to), but I am not certain how many shifts they take, answering phone calls and chats. And as technology continues to improve, the barrier between myself and my clients is likely to somewhat fall (for instance, video chat could become a norm).
Anyhow…I should get back to work. And after that, it’s sure to be reading. *sighs*