It’s been interesting. I realized the other day that I might need to take a look at books on creativity, because I was taking a fairly negative angle towards my own. Then I realized that I have easy access to these resources — much easier than most. Turns out that all I have to do if I want resources on “creativity” is to look!
On the way home I realized also that if I’m going to spiritualize my creativity, maybe I might want to look up (pre-existing) Deities of creativity…which could go into Neopaganism…or into a syncretic religion. It’s been a while since I’ve been involved with anything Pagan — I used to hang out with a bunch of Pagan Reconstructionists online, so I know a bit about the cultural aspects of it; participating without violating, etc. And actually, that does cross over with what I was talking about before, only the view taken would be from within the home religion as versus external to it — and most people don’t classify themselves the way others might.
(If you know what I’m talking about…you are very educated!) 😀
The major drawback here is, well, social dynamics. It can be hard to be a creative person among people who like clear divisions between categories…not all people are like this, but I have a bit more “flow” than I’ve found some others can tolerate.
I’m actually thinking that an African-diasporic religion might be…worth checking out, though the only people I know who are into that, aren’t the greatest representatives. I’d have to do my research and see which systems, if any, are somewhat like my worldview (though given that my worldview is sourced from one of my parents’…the likelihood of hitting on something is high). I’ve even had issues in the past with mixing up Orisha and Lwa, so…right. And though one side of my family does hail from Louisiana, that doesn’t quite make things easier: I know next to nothing about the place, except that Louisiana, and in particular New Orleans, is different than much of the American South — because of French influence.
I’ve actually been feeling better today. I’ve been on an upswing since I started engaging my more masculine energy, last week, even though that was accompanied by some communication flubs. (There is some passion there, and some aggression…which makes the concept of engaging with life easier. I don’t know exactly why.) For some reason, I feel more alive and attendant (by this I mean, “present”) when I’m able to express this.
And I suppose it does say something about my intuition that I would pursue being creative as a life purpose even if the Deity of Creativity was maligned…I did realize that I probably put some people in a tough position, though; where they might want to encourage me in my creativity (healing!) but not in my conception of my creativity (prohibiting!).
It may well be, though, that I’m using an archaic concept of creativity in which it is feared because it brings change — and some people at one time, didn’t like change. At least, writing what I did, did clarify why I had a sense of conflict over being creative. Maybe it didn’t need to be made public (I can see where massive confusion may have come from trying to communicate it to people outside my mind), but at least I made the connection.
Earlier today, we went out for dim sum, then I came back and went outside for a while…and just got out the shower (which I’ve needed for way too long). Granted that I have a Discussion Post due before midnight tonight, but there is no way that I’m going to be able to complete all my readings and lectures before tackling it. And everyone in the class will be able to see that post. I think it will be obvious that I haven’t done the reading, but the upshot is that I’ve been taking care of myself. It was just a very nice day, and I haven’t been out in extended periods of sunlight since we got back from Hawaii.
I did take pictures, too! But right now they’re still my babies. I have a hard time letting people see through my eyes while having been subject to verbal attacks from people, in the past…
But yeah…flowers. ❤ 🙂 It’s very colorful outside, this time of year! (Well, here, at least!)
I’ll try and get on my homework, now…