I’ve been looking back over my postings with regard to art, and it’s actually been really inspiring. Today I drew for the first time in a while…trying to finesse a design that must have come to me at 2 AM when I was trying to sleep. It does take less time (and fewer resources) to sit down and draw, than it does to plan and execute a jewelry design — a reason I’m thinking of getting back into it again.
Also, drawing helps to design, although with beads, it really isn’t very exact…there are specific sizes and ratios to manufactured beads, along with other limitations like hole diameter(s), that don’t work out totally in freehand drawings. However…the skill should be very useful where it comes to bead embroidery design.
Apologies for my nonstandard and stream-of-consciousness use of punctuation, along with my total skirting of current politics, here. I’ve tried to edit the former out; and there is a reason for the latter, which I should get used to.
Anyhow, with my Library and Information Science classes starting up again, I’ve needed to go back to creative activities in order to stay balanced. I can easily get overwhelmed by incoming information and then blank for hours afterwards, not knowing what to express — especially if I’ve been reading for hours. In this case, it’s easier to play around with beads and colors…and pencils…than it is to write or fully speak…and I have so many colored pencils and regular pencils and aquarelles and charcoals and pastels (and paints, though I think that 30″x30″ canvas is really intimidating me) around here that…it’s really tempting to get back into that, again. Not to intend to make any great art, but just for the joy of it.
I have also found that there is likely a place in my life for recreational reading (that is, reading without the goal of writing in mind). I didn’t come to this conclusion, though, until after having done some of my homework. I realize now that my exposure to books in the stacks via my job as a Student Assistant, and to authors via my English/Creative Writing education, actually does afford me some knowledge as to how to find my way around a library catalog, as a patron. Given that two of my classes are focused on cataloging and metadata, this looks like it will be a semester full of insights!
I actually really am liking the one class which has already started in earnest…because it’s like a more intense treasure-hunt than that which I experienced as a Volunteer. It’s like, “using all of your capabilities and these clues, find this item (which you haven’t been given the name of),” which is something that I’m not permitted to do in my current position at work. I can only expect the restrictions to become more intense as I move up the ranks, if I move up the ranks — at least in a Public Library. This is related to serving all people, not a selective group determined by my own personal biases. Given that this is directly related to professionalism…
Okay, I’m about to say too much, so I’ll stop. 🙂
The trouble seems to lie in having gone into this field for reasons related to my own values, and then having to rein in the free expression of some of those values in order to be “professional,” at least on the job. But I would expect and appreciate the effort to remain politically neutral as regarded job duties (“professional”) if I consulted a Librarian who had very different political values than my own, so I can look at it that way. Same thing if I had to access a free clinic: I wouldn’t want to be denied services or given inferior service because the person caring for me personally didn’t agree with my choices. The principle cuts both ways. I cannot advocate my personal views as a library professional (should I become a professional), but I can advocate them as a person — outside of my job duties.
Of course, this is a personal blog, not a professional one (THANKFULLY!!!). I’d still err on the side of caution when talking politics, though: just because I have had a taste of what it is like to be looked up to, and I can’t speak with the authority of the ALA behind me here, nor imply it.
So, forgive me if I do not go into politics right here and now. Even though I am generally a deep thinker and so would not immediately advocate any position in most cases, I also should not do so in a way where I might lead one to believe I were speaking for anyone but myself. I would hope that I would be read to speak only for myself, anyway, though!
And dang. I only have about five hours until dawn. Okay, I should at least get ready for bed. 😛 I did surprise myself today, though: my little drawing that I did to expand on a late-night scrawl of a chain design…actually looks…passable? 😉
Ah, I’ve got to try that pattern out in physical materials, now…