I feel the need to author one or more books on the metaphysical space I’ve gotten to over the past year. Or rather, which has culminated within the past year.
It’s kind of deconstruction to an extreme, which then reorganizes itself into some kind of insight which can be felt and intuited, but not so easily expressed in language. This is either because language is too limited (very possible), or I just have not been able to cause it to fully express what I mean — hence, the art.
I’ve not wanted to write this because my own system is changing all the time — no explanation is taken to be “true” — and so by the time I codify something I’m feeling, it’s already started to be questioned. But maybe notes on the trail would be something OK. This very much falls into the territory of “mysticism” as well, and given how many books on spirituality, religion, philosophy, and the occult I’ve read and put down, I kind of feel like it’s junk, or, at least, highly questionable.
But it might help someone. Especially those going through existential crises.
And it might help me.