I have a little bit of time here, which I’m actually opting to use to write, rather than research a particular artist I was assigned over the weekend.
I haven’t been around this blog for a while, and that’s mostly because I’ve had a third class starting up — this is self-defense training, and it’s been fairly intense. The good part of it is that I feel like I’m more able to face my own life, because what I’ve gone through in self-defense training was more harrowing than the everyday stuff. I was even able to go on desk today and not have to worry about things that might happen but which I couldn’t control.
The part of this that has…really kind of thrown me is the time I’ve needed to calm myself and deal with emotions that have come up, and just kind of “process” it all. So…I’m a bit behind in classes. Particularly where it comes to my Art homework — I haven’t done much of it at all within the last two weeks, and accordingly have been having difficulty with motivation.
I’m thinking, really, of dealing with the art homework by making comic-book-type layouts — especially as my goal is to work in Comics — and just forgetting about trying to reach into it from a Fine Arts perspective. We’re into a new portfolio, which has to do with mapping. Obviously, time → linear → line elements can be key in a map…but even with the second assignment I haven’t really known what I was doing or what was meant by “map,” so I’m just kind of out there right now. I have a little less than two weeks to finish it all, but I already bombed my speech for the other class, so I should have the time. 🙂 (I have no aspirations to become a Communications MA, so I think I’m fine.)
I am really thinking I should go into Writing as a vocation now, though. This is something that has not (yet) died. I’m even leaning into doing the Animation certificate, as it stands. I know I go back and forth a lot, but I’m thinking it’s my nature. This is also the same reason I chose to be employed by a public library — a library is a repository of information; and particularly public libraries are not topic-specific. Like Writing; it’s a medium, not so much a specialization (as I think of the term, at least — it’s not like Physics, though it is about how to find what you’re looking for).
The main problem I’ve experienced while working in a public library has been the odd patron who comes in and attempts to overrun everyone’s boundaries, though at this point I’m not certain whether this is a neurodiversity thing or an intentional power/control-related thing. This is the major reason I’m in self-defense class.
Like I’ve been saying, I don’t think I want to stay here for the rest of my life, but right now I’m wondering about taking on a paraprofessional program just so that I can become a Library Assistant and earn enough money to survive on my own. LAs make almost as much as Librarians in my system — they just aren’t as high-ranking and can’t move up without a Master’s in Library and/or Information Science. I don’t think I’m committed enough to go through with the Master’s, but a paraprofessional degree is a much lower cost to me, and feels lower-risk. I’ve also been advised that maybe I want to go for the straight Information Science degree, not the MLS or MLIS.
After all, with the way information technology is changing the playing field — along with E-books which can be read on tablets, obviating the need for physical paper books — it’s not even a sure thing that libraries as we know them today will continue to be around for much longer. There is the very salient issue of being a community gathering place, though beyond this? Beyond that it’s providing a safe forum and helping people access the information they need to access, which is increasingly going to be computer-based. I have little desire to be either a security guard or a computer docent (again).
I do think the future of information is going to be online, at least until we find something better. This calls for a curatorial role — sorting out what information sources are most valuable and which to recommend to any particular user, depending on their information needs — but I’m thinking information services as they exist now are going to drastically change, especially with a new generation of digital natives. And I’m thinking that a Master’s in Library Science…could become outdated very quickly.
I’m feeling a bit better now, though I still don’t want to do my homework. I’ll try anyway…